The most beautiful flower

The park bench was deserted as I sat down to read, 

Beneath the long, straggly branches of an old willow tree, 

Disillusioned by life with good reason to frown, 

For the world was intent on dragging me down, 

And if that weren't to ruin my day, 

A young boy out of breath approached me, all tired from play, 

He stood right before me with his head tilted down, 

And said with great excitement, 'Look what I found! '

In his hand was a flower, and what a pitiful sight, 

With its petal worn-not enough rain, or too little light, 

Wanting him to take his dead flower and go off to play, 

I faked a smile and then shifted away, 

But instead of retreating he sat next to my side, 

And placed the flower to his nose and declared with overacted surprise, 

'It sure smells pretty and it's beautiful too, 

That's why I picked it; here, it's for you, '

The weed before me was dying or dead, 

Not vibrant of colours, orange yellow or red, 

But I knew I must take it, or he might never leave, 

So I reached for the flower, and replied, 'Just what I need, '

But instead of him placing the flower in my hand, 

He held it midair without reason or plan, 

It was then that I noticed for the very first time, 

That weed-toting boy could not see: he was blind, 

I heard my voice quaver, tears shone like the sun, 

As I thanked him for picking the very best one, 

'You're welcome, ' he smiled, and then ran off to play, 

Unaware of the impact he'd had on my day, 

I sat there and wondered how he managed to see, 

A self-pitying guy beneath an old willow tree, 

How did he know of my self-indulged plight? 

Perhaps from his heart, he'd been blessed with true sight, 

Through the eyes of a blind child, at last I could see, 

The problem wasn't the world; the problem was me, 

And for all of those times I myself had been blind, 

I vowed to see the beauty in life, and appreciate every second that's mine, 

And then I held that wilted flower up to my nose, 

And breathed in the fragrance of a beautiful rose, 

And smiled as I watched that young boy, another weed in his hand, 

About to change the lives of an unsuspecting young couples! 

-- by Fathmath Sana

I wish I could sing again...

I wish I could untangle my dilemmas with the songs again

Could write down a poetry and dance in the rain

I wish i could stop being so sane

and once more live life carefree and insane

I wish i become wishful again

fly in my fantasy on my paper plane

I wish I could write a poetry again

I wish I could dance in the rain

I wish i could see with my own eyes again

could throw away the glasses that came along with being sane

I wish I could dream having kids with my girl of fantasy again

I hate it when i dumped her and never called her back again

How much we loved each other ever since we met in our childhood fantasies

I would rush to my terrace in the middle of night and talk to her like crazies

I wish I could just get my life again

I could sing and dance in the rain

    

Talaash

Talaash raha hu ae zindagi tujhe zindagi mein
kisi ki bandagi mein, kisi ki dillagi mein
kisi ki muskarahaton mein , kisi ki chahto mein


Chuppha raha hu ae zindagi tujhe zindagi se
khudi ki khwahisho se, khudi ki hasraton se
khudi ki uljhano se, khudi ki masoomiyat se

Bata raha hu ae zindagi tujhe zindagi ke jeene ka sabab
kuchh khudke kuchh uske aur kuch sabke liye

Sit down! You've got your life to waste

Open your facebook account. The world is waiting to hear from you. Everyone wants to know about your weekend. Everyone loves the food you cook. Oh my god! Your status updates are crazier as ever and when you talk all that philosophy, Man O Man ! You really change people lives.

The profile pic looks great but this one on your phone you haven't uploaded yet is just fabulous. The world needs to know what beauty is. I just went single again after the fight i had with her last night. Hey Girls! I am SINGLE.

Just few days back when i enlightened everyone that my relationship is too complex and you people can't understand since 'it's complicated', I had everyone showering best wishes and their Gyan Vani. I was the star and most talked about Guy ever. The blessings on Facebook really work and i had to change it to 'in relationship'.

Putting it on facebook doesn't makes it permanent. You don't become what people think you are or you have. I just came online after a short break in washroom. Some breaks just can't be avoided.

Some new notifications. She uploaded her new pics of the evening we spent last night. But guess, it was her evening alone with a photographer you don't have to think of. 42 comments in just 3 minutes. Was the world waiting for her pics or something. I couldn't resist the temptation of clicking the 'like' button. She was offline to chat and she needs to know that I am here too.

Her all the Xes commented on her pics and i noticed they are still in her friend list. Why on earth a girl needs to keep her X and Y and Z in the same list which has her Present. I pinged her...

lots of fan following han :)

ofcourse...after you shot them with your love  honeybunny :)

Yeah :)

<nothing for next 3 minutes>

BTW I just noticed him. He is still in contact with you?

who?

Don't act as if you don't know who am i talking about?

oh really..so i am acting?

<thinking what to type now>
Didn't mean that Babe. Just found it weird :)

ok

Hey Shona...please don't mind. I just wanted to know. Can't I?

Spare me with your narrow mentality please.


<ego got hurt now>
Narrow mentality? What the crap..you have your Ex and why only Ex, your Y and Z and whole alphabets in your list what the hell am I doing here then?

ok
<chat offline>

u there?
now don't give me that nasty attitude of yours. <blah blah blah continues>

<dialogue box pops up>
"There seems to be some kind of error in your last action. Please refresh the page"

<now looking for her. She is no where..not in the friend list, not in the past messages. Her comments are gone. Congratulations! You have been BLOCKED >

It's unbearable and insulting. She didn't even paid a penny over the movie and dinner last night. Its time to update status now. The world needs to know that their is No Love but hallucination.

You can be everything else but not the one you believe you are

Our beliefs have a very strong impact on our being. These beliefs are a product of what we perceive about things around us. We tend to make a perception about everything around and we rarely find time to look into ourselves. We believe that we are so perfect with our very own ideas about things that we can go on preaching people and imposing our thoughts on them.

Sometimes its better to realize that you are not perfect. Your thoughts are not the one that has to be accepted by everyone. Sometimes all you should try to do is to give up.

Roses -- be my Valentine.

Red roses were her favorites, her name was also Rose.
And every year her husband sent them, tied with pretty bows.
The year he died, the roses were delivered to her door.
The card said, "Be my Valentine", like all the years before.

Each year he sent her roses, and the note would always say,
"I love you even more this year, than last year on this day.
My love for you will always grow, with every passing year."
She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear.

She thought, he ordered roses in advance before this day.
Her loving husband did not know, that he would pass away.
He always liked to do things early, way before the time.
Then, if he got too busy, everything would work out fine.

She trimmed the stems, and placed them in a very special vase.
Then, sat the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face.
She would sit for hours, in her husband's favorite chair.
While staring at his picture, and the roses sitting there.

A year went by, and it was hard to live without her mate.
With loneliness and solitude, that had become her fate.
Then, the very hour, as on Valentines before,
The doorbell rang, and there were roses, sitting by her door.

She brought the roses in, and then just looked at them in shock.
Then, went to get the telephone, to call the florist shop.
The owner answered, and she asked him, if he would explain,
Why would someone do this to her, causing her such pain?

"I know your husband passed away, more than a year ago,"
The owner said, "I knew you'd call, and you would want to know.
The flowers you received today, were paid for in advance.
Your husband always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance.

There is a standing order, that I have on file down here,
And he has paid, well in advance, you'll get them every year.
There also is another thing, that I think you should know,
He wrote a special little card...he did this years ago.

Then, should ever I find out that he's no longer here,
That's the card...that should be sent, to you the following year."
She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard.
Her fingers shaking, as she slowly reached to get the card.

Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note.
Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what he wrote...
"Hello my love, I know it's been a year since I've been gone,
I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome.

I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real.
For if it was the other way, I know how I would feel.
The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life.
I loved you more than words can say, you were the perfect wife.

You were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every need.
I know it's only been a year, but please try not to grieve.
I want you to be happy, even when you shed your tears.
That is why the roses will be sent to you for years.

When you get these roses, think of all the happiness,
That we had together, and how both of us were blessed.
I have always loved you and I know I always will.
But, my love, you must go on, you have some living still.

Please...try to find happiness, while living out your days.
I know it is not easy, but I hope you find some ways.
The roses will come every year, and they will only stop,
When your door's not answered, when the florist stops to knock.

He will come five times that day, in case you have gone out.
But after his last visit, he will know without a doubt,
To take the roses to the place, where I've instructed him,
And place the roses where we are, together once again.

Sometimes in life, you find a special friend;
Someone who changes your life just by being part of it.
Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop;
Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world.
Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just
waiting for you to open it. This is Forever Friendship.

by: James A. Kisner

Puppies for Sale

A farmer had some puppies he needed to sell. He painted a sign advertising the pups and set about Nailing it to a post on the edge of his yard. As he was driving the last nail into the post, he Felt a tug on his overalls. He looked down into the Eyes of a little boy. Mister," he said, "I want to buy one of your puppies."

"Well," said the farmer, as he rubbed the sweat off the back of his neck, "these puppies come from fine parents and cost a good deal of money." The boy dropped his head for a moment. Then reaching deep into his pocket, he pulled out a handful of change and held it up to the farmer. "I've got thirty-nine cents. Is that enough to take a look?" "Sure," said the farmer.
And with that he let out a whistle,"Here,Dolly!" he called.

Out from the doghouse and down the ramp ran Dolly followed by four little balls of fur. The little boy pressed his face against the chain link fence. His eyes danced with delight.
As the dogs made their way to the fence, the little boy noticed something else stirring inside the doghouse. Slowly another little ball appeared; this One noticeably smaller. Down the ramp it slid. Then in a somewhat awkward manner the little pup began hobbling toward the others, doing its best to catch up.... "I want that one," the little boy said, pointing to the runt.

The farmer knelt down at the boy's side and said, "Son, you don't want that puppy. He will never be able to run and play with you like these other dogs would." With that the little boy stepped back from the fence, reached down, and began rolling up one leg of his trousers. In doing so he revealed a steel brace running down both sides of his leg attaching itself To a specially made shoe. Looking back up at the farmer, he said, "You see sir, I don't run too well myself, and he will need Someone who understands."

The world is full of people who need someone who understands.

When Opportunity knocks... MAKE USE OF IT !!!!

A man with a gun goes into a bank and demands their money. Once he is given the money, he turns to a customer and asks, 'Did you see me rob this bank?'

The man replied, 'Yes sir, I did.' The robber then shot him in the temper , killing him instantly.

He then turned to a couple standing next to him and asked the man, 'Did you see me rob this bank?'

The man replied, 'No sir, I didn't, but my wife did!'

True love is an acceptance of all that is

From the very beginning, girl's family objected strongly on her

dating this guy, saying that it has got to do with family

background, & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she

were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarreled very often. Though

the girl loved the guy deeply, she always asked him: "How deep is your

love for me?" As the guy is not good with his words, this often caused

the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl

often vents her anger on him. As for him, he only endured it in

silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to

further his studies overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the

girl:

"I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you.

If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As

for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry

me?" The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally

gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he left, they

got engaged. The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy

was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through

emails & phone calls. Though it was hard, but both never thought of giving

up.

One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked

down by a car that lost control. when she woke up, she saw her parents

beside her bed. She realized that she was badly injured. Seeing her

mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all

that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. she had lost her

voice....

The doctor says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose

her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing

coming out from her, she broke down. During the stay in hospital, besides

silence cry,..it's still just silence cry that accompanied her.

Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the

ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart every time it rang.

She does not wish to let the guy know & not wanting to be a burden to

him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any

longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent

millions & millions of reply, countless of phone calls,. . all the

girl could do, besides crying, is still crying.... The parents decided

to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be

happy.

With a new environment, the girl learns sign language & started a

new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One

day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not

to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore

news of him.

A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing a

invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When

she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead. When she was

about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing

in front of her.

He used sign language to tell her "I've spent a year to learn sign

language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise.

Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You." With that, he

slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.

Treat every relationship as if it's the last one, then you'll know

how to Give. Treat every moment as is it's the last day, then you'll

know how to treasure.

Message :True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love

is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

Never ever lie to a woman ;)

A man called home to his wife and said, 'Darling , I have been asked to go fishing up in Canada with my boss & several of his friends.
We'll be gone for a week. This is a good opportunity for me to get that promotion I've been wanting, so could you please pack enough clothes for a week and set out my rod and fishing box, we're leaving from the office & I will swing by the house to pick my things up' 'Oh! Please pack my new blue silk pyjamas. '
The wife thinks this sounds a bit fishy but being the good wife she is, did exactly what her husband asked.
The following weekend he came home a little tired but otherwise looking good.
The wife welcomed him home and asked if he caught many fish?
He said, 'Yes! Lots of salmons, some bluegills, and a few swordfishes. But why didn't you pack my new blue silk pyjamas like I asked you to Do?'
You'll love the answer,folks......


The wife replied, 'I did, dear. They're in your fishing box! ...'

OVERDUE

Mr. Sharma comes home one night and his wife throws her arms around his neck: I have great news... I'm a month overdue. I think we're going to have a baby!!! The doctor gave me a test today but until we find out for sure, we can't tell anybody." The next day, Mrs. Sharma receives a telephone call from AEC (Ahmedabad Electric Company) because the electricity bill has not been paid. "Am I speaking to Mrs. Sharma?" "Yes... Speaking" AEC guy, "You're a month overdue, you know!!!" "How do YOU know?" stammers the young woman. "Well, ma'am, it's in our files!" says the AEC guy. "What are you saying? It's in your files... HOW???" Yes... We have a system of finding out who's overdue" "GOD!!!... this is too much..." "Madam, I am sorry... I am following orders, I have to inform you are overdue" "I know that... let me talk to my husband about this tonight, he will speak to your company tomorrow" That night, she tells her husband about the call and he, mad as a bull, rushes to AEC office the next day morning. "What's going on??? You have it on file that my wife is a month overdue??? What business is that of yours?" the husband shouts. "Just calm down," says the lady at the reception at AEC, "it's nothing serious. All you have to do is pay us." "PAY you? and if I refuse?" "Well, in that case, Sir, we'd have no option but to cut yours off." "And what would my wife do then?" the husband asks. "I don't know. I guess she'd have to use a candle."

Man, Wife and Dog

A man was leaving a cafe with his morning coffee when he noticed a most
Unusual funeral procession A funeral coffin was followed by a second one
About 50 feet behind the first. Behind the second coffin was a solitary
man Walking with a black dog. Behind him was a queue of 200 men walking
in Single line. The man couldn't stand his curiosity.

He approached the man walking with the dog, "I am so sorry for your
loss, And I know now is a bad time to disturb you, but I've never seen a
funeral Like this with so many of you walking in single line. Whose
funeral is It?"

The man replied, "Well, that first coffin is for my wife."

"What happened to her?"
The man replied, "My dog attacked and killed her."
He inquired further, "Well, who is in the second coffin?"
The man answered, "My mother-in-law. She was trying to help my wife when
the dog attacked and killed her also."
A thoughtful moment of silence passes between the two men. Then the
first One asks in excitement, "Can I borrow the dog?"



The man replied, "Join the queue.... :-)

Who is a boy / man ?

A boy/man is one of the most wonderful creations of God.

He starts compromising at very tender age. He sacrifices his chocolates for his sister.

Later he sacrifices his love for just a smile on his parents face. He sacrifices his love for his wife and children by working late nights.

He builds their future by taking loans from banks and then repaying them for the life time. Thus he sacrifices full youth for his wife and children without any complain.

Believe me he struggles a lot but still has to hear the music (scolding) of Mother, wife and his boss. Yet every mother, wife and boss tries to have control over him.

Finally his life ends up by compromising for others happiness. He is that creature of God who no one can compete with.

Respect every boy/man in your life. You will never know what he has sacrificed for you.

Just extend your hand when he needs it and you shall receive twice fold love from him.

Does Love need a reason?

Once a lady when having a conversation with her lover, asked:

Lady : Why do you like me..? Why do you love me?

Man : I can t tell the reason.. but I really like you..

Lady : You can t even tell me the reason... how can you say you like me? How can you say you love me?

Man : I really don t know the reason, but I can prove that I love U.

Lady : Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason. My friend s boyfriend can tell her why he loves her but not you!

Man : Ok..ok!!! Erm... because you are beautiful,

because your voice is sweet,

because you are caring,

because you are loving,

because you are thoughtful,

because of your smile,

because of your every movements.

The lady felt very satisfied with the man s answer.

Unfortunately, a few days later, the Lady met with an accident and went in comma.

The Guy then placed a letter by her side,

here is the content:

Darling,Because of your sweet voice that I love you...Now can you talk? No! Therefore I cannot love you.

Because of your care and concern that I like you..Now that you cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you.

Because of your smile,because of your every movements that I love you..

Now can you smile? Now can you move?No, therefore I cannot love you...

If love needs a reason, like now,There is no reason for me to love you anymore.

Does love need a reason?

NO!Therefore,

I still LOVE YOU...

The girl I met in train

It was not a normal day where I used to wake up late at 9 o’clock and get ready for my shift that starts at 2pm. That friday I had to start early and leave early from my office, because I have to start to kerala that evening to attend my friend’s marriage. If you think that I am going to tell something about the trip to kerala… then you are absolutely wrong, this is about the train travel to office in that friday morning.

Went to beach station to catch my 8.30 train to pranur, just ringed my friend who usually comes at that time…

“Hey ashik… where are you da..?”

“…..”

“come soon.. train is in 3rd platform… will start in few minutes..”

“ …..”

“ok bye..”

After a few minutes, he appeared with a Friday casuals… we were walking fast to the 3rd compartment in which we usually travel… but that day unfortunately we didn’t get the window seat. I usually bring a newspaper to read, so that I can pass the time in that one and a half hours long journey. But I didn’t know at that time that this newspaper will give me such a beautiful experience.

The train passed “Fort” station, then came “Park”, where usually all the crowd comes in and occupies almost all the seats of the train. I don’t know if it is my fortune or it just happened normally, a girl came and occupied the seat that was exactly opposite to me…

She was wearing a pink sleeveless top and a blue jean, she was bubbly and was so cute, I cant resist myself looking at her, I wont say that everyone will love her, but I can dare say that everyone will like her for her cute smile. Only sad thing is.. her Father was with her…

Me and my friend were looking at her. And enjoying each and every cute reactions that she gave while talking to her dad. But still, we were pretending to read the newspaper. But suddenly I can see her reading the news from my newspaper, and she was discussing about the same with her father, and she was wrong about almost every news, Her father was correcting and explaining her.

“thilak… this is ur chance… don’t miss it…” Something told me from inside…

Next time she read a news and told the same to her father, as usual she was wrong, this time I interrupted and talked to her, corrected and explained about the news that she wrongly understood.

I didn’t know why my friend was giving strange looks at me… anyway I didn’t wanted to stop talking with her… Felt that he too wanted to talk with her… he tried his best, but she was more interested to talk only to me…

“Where are you going?” she asked me…

“To my office” I replied…

Then she was asking about me and my workplace.. Wow… I was telling everything about me to her… then I asked her name, she suddenly looked her dad’s face… man… c’mon why do these girls behave such a way…? Is she afraid to tell her name in front of her dad or is she not willing to answer me…? I was asking myself,

meanwhile her dad just nodded, and then she turned towards me and said “JANANI... “

“Sweet name…” I replied…

‘Why did I say so…? Is that name really sweet…?’ I asked myself and I was thinking whether to tell my name or should I wait till she asks it.. finally decided to wait, but that’s sad, she didn’t wanted to know my nameL. But she didn’t stop talking to me, she was very jovial and she was telling about her studies and all the subjects that she has…

When the train reached “Tambaram”, the man who was sitting near me stood up.

“shall I sit in that place…” she asked me…

I was perplexed for a moment, and I didn’t answer anything…

“I like window seat… please…” she asked again…

Do you think that I refused this offer…??

‘Nothing happens without a reason’ I said to myself, I really was fortunate not to get window seat today…

“then…?” I asked..

“then what…?” she replied..

“Where do you stay…?”

“E16, Pioneer colony, Anna nagar…” she replied immediately…

I didn’t expect that she will tell her full address and her dad was giving mixed reactions… I didn’t know how to react… I didn’t ask any further questions…

There was complete silence for sometime…

“How long will it take for you to reach ur station..?” she broke the silence with this question..

“another 15 mins or so…” I replied…

“Where are you going…?” I queried this time..

“To my uncle’s home.. took leave today..” she replied..

Suddenly my phone shouted with its ringtone, it was my friend, just a casual talk and I hung up…

“What phone is this…?” she asked..

“E71..”

“What is your phone number…?”

Man… this cute doll is asking my phone number… am I dreaming…?

My friend was also surprised… “machi… kekraa la… kudu da…” he told me…

“You wont give ur phone number to me…?” she asked again…

“y.. ya ya… w.. with pleasure… note it down…” I said with some breaking words

she pulled a paper and a pen from his father’s pocket… and noted down my number digit by digit…

should I ask her number…? But I think she doesn’t own a mobile…

“I don’t have a mobile, can you take my father’s number…?”

“yeah sure…” I said and noted the number…

but I don’t think I will call her father and ask him to give it to her daughter who doesn’t even know my name…

and my train was upto reach paranur…

“I am gonna reach… You wanna visit my office…?” I asked…

“No I will only be with my dad…” she said…

“Ok don’t forget me… call me…”

“ya sure… will call you from my dad’s mobile…”

I waved my hands at her… “bubye…”

she waved back… “bye…”

I got down… and still she was waving her hand from the window…

I could not forget her face… JANANI… I don’t know if her name is sweet or not, but she really is a very sweet and cute girl… I could not forget her reactions… especially when she was telling about her class teacher and the rhymes that she told in english and tamil… After all… Whatelse can we expect from a 4 year old girl who is studying LKG…

For those who think they know everything

A congressman was seated next to a little girl on the airplane leaving from Atlanta when he turned to her and said,'Let's talk'.

I've heard that flights go quicker if you strike up a conversation with your fellow passenger.'

The little girl, who had just opened her book, closed it slowly and said to the total stranger, 'What would you like to talk about?'

'Oh, I don't know,' said the congressman.

'How about global warming or universal health care', and he smiles smugly.

'OK,' she said. 'Those could be interesting topics.

But let me ask you a question first.

A Horse, a Cow, and a Deer all eat the same stuff - grass.

Yet a deer excretes little pellets, while a cowturns out a flat patty, and a horse produces clumps of dried grass.

'Why do you suppose that is?'

The legislator, visibly surprised by the little girl's intelligence, thinks about it and says, 'Hmmm, I have no idea.'

To which the little girl replies, 'Do you really feel qualified to discuss global warming or universal health care when you don't know shit!’

Love never fades, It only changes it's shades

11th December 2010

The sun was playing hide and seek. The wind was chilly cold, it was 8 in the morning. She was sleeping by my side in the bed. I had switched on the light and she tried to cover her face with the blanket, but she can't. As she hates to cover her face while sleeping. I switched off the light and her face seems to relax and a sweet smile appears on her face in that deep sleep, saying thank you to me. I slowly took out my SLR and tried to capture her smile :)

It looked the same as it was 5 years back.

11th December 2005

I still remember the day, it was 11th of December 2005. It was a Sunday.

We were on our first outing after "our union as one in this world"(bole to honeymoon tha :D:D:D). We were in the valley of KASHMIR. Looking out of the glassed window. The whole earth was clad with white innocent snow. The snow resembled the smile of a small kid with a innocent smile, touching my soul and making me feel like going out and dance in it. Kashmir is so good and so peaceful in December(now don't remind me of terror seeking groups, I am just speaking of the valley). My room had a room heater, I could do anything but just to sulk in the

warm cozy blanket was so good. The room was filled with the essence of Hot elachi chai. I don't drink tea but that's her favorite, her morning starts with a hot elachi chai. She was lying next to me in the warm cozy bed, trying to pull the blanket up and cover her face as I have switched on the light in the room. This was the first time I noticed that she doesn't like to cover her face while sleeping. Time passed on and I knew her more and more. That elachi chai of hers is her favorite which she calls pyala and my favorite was my morning kiss which she calls pyar ka pyala. Now I knew she hates to cover her face while sleeping and I loved that part of her sleep. Her face is never covered with the blanket which gives me the pleasure of looking at her anytime. I have seen the world in her face, I have seen her smile in her dreams and loved her even more by every day. Sometimes I see wrinkles on her forehead, I know she is tensed in her dreams and I would just shake her a bit to shatter such a dream which disturbs her peaceful night. My lappys desktops are filled with her pics with a sweet innocent smile which she portra ys while she is dreaming a sweet dream, thanks to my SLR :) I know her very well, she likes magenta color and would fight with me when I would say its pink. She likes elachi tea early morning, her pyala. She loves wearing pink but often picks up a blue dress as I love her in blue. She always chooses my happiness before hers. She cries like a kid while seeing some romantic movie. She holds a special aroma of herself which mesmerizes me every day. She gets confused with numbers while calculating for anything and would need my help, for which I always get a kiss. I still remember our first fight, she went out and bought herself a calculator so that she won't have any problem with calculation and won't have to kiss me for her calculation problems. While on the weekend drive she will tell me every minute "its reverse ABC, Accelerator Brake Clutch", as she would get confused which foot to place where and my heart would take a extra beat knowing that she is confused with the pedals, risking both our lives, but she won't let me drive on the weekends. She is scared to death when it comes to needles and injection and would run away or fight with the doctor if I am not around to hold her and cool her down. She loves puppies but hates when they pee inside the house. And as I am well mannered and I only use the bathrooms I am her puppy. She would play with me on a Sunday morning when I would be dying to catch some more sleep(sahi kah hai jisne bhi kaha hai, shadii ke baad ladka kutta ho jata hai ;), but I LOVE to be her puppy). I love the way she cuddles me like a mom cuddles a small baby. She sometimes forgets the recipe of what she is cooking and would scratch her head with the salt box in her hand standing in front of the gas stove. She loves animation movies. She has big eyes, which become even more beautiful when she applies kajal. She is full of life, yupieeeeeeeeeeee, I am too lucky to have her as my life :):):) Two years later we were expecting a angel in our life. It was 11th December 2007. She was in admitted in the hospital and the doctor said that in few minutes the angel would be life :) I was sitting outside the OT and thinking of names, I had thought of Midhu for my daughter and she had thought of Karan for her son. Lets see who will be born.

11th December 2007

Doctor came out rushing to me and said "the situation has gone critical and we can save only one of them, for the other it will be a risk. Whom you want the baby or the mother" I couldn't say a word I was in a shock and someone from either o four families or friends, I don't know who, said "save the baby" The doctor started to move back to the OT when I shouted at the top of my voice "NO" and everyone there rouse to their feet, people whispering stopped their whispers, the doctor stood still And everyone anticipated what I was gonna say next and I said it, "Save her, save my ARYA, I want her, you can take a chance with the baby, but save my wife, my ARYA" Doctor smiled back into the room and all my dreams were shattered in a second. I knew my ARYA will help me get over this if anything happens to the baby, but she has loved the baby more than me, who will support her. And I knew that moment, I just can break at that moment, I have to stand by my ARYA when she needs me the most. Time stood still like a summer noon without any wind making me feel uncomfortable to even breathe. All I had was hope to support me nothing else seemed real, my world has blasted into small fragments of pain, sorrow and fear which was trying to suffocate me from all directions. It was then I heard my angel cry, a cry which cleared all the grey clouds around me and joy filled in every where around me. I cannot be more happy in my life than that moment, when doctor saved my Arya and also succeeded to save my angel. The doctor came out after some time and handed us the baby, she was an angel. Hurray my wish was fulfilled, she was a daughter my MIdhu was born that day and not her Karan. Everyone in the family started to compare her features with some r the other one, but I was sure of those eyes. Those big eyes, those lovely eyes were of my Arya. Every one held a smile as big as their heart, then the doctor permitted me to go in and speak to my Arya. My mom held my MIdhu in her hands, while I walked into the OT. I was on cloud 9, we were gonna share the biggest happiness of our life ever since we met. But I could sense lot of blood in the OT, she has lost lot of blood in the operation, all my happiness seemed to fade. She was there on the bed, she had so many pipes and needles running in through her body, she hates and fears injection but she bared all this for our Angel. She held a smile that could strengthen me enough to fight the whole world with my last breath, but then I can see the pain that hid behind her smile. She kept that smile while I was no more able to with stand the site of hers in that way, i moved close and sat beside her. I could not speak a word but yet we spoke a million words. I could feel her pain, my body shivered for a moment and a tear rolled down my cheeck on to her hand. Her smile changed a bit and i read her eyes, she asked me to lean forward, she took all her strength and rose a bit a kissed on my forehead. For that one second I cursed her, cursed her like hell, why the hell does she care for me so much. Why the hell does she care for my happiness so much. I read her heart very well and I knew it that very moment and couldn't control myself. She has taken the decision. Even before the doctor came to me I knew that she has asked the doctor to save the child risking her own life. She didn't even think for once what will happen to me if anything happens to her. A million thoughts ran through my mind, was she safe or not and when i turned to the doctor all she said was "I am sorry, it was her decision". I will never forgive that doctor, i ll never forgive you my love life my world my ARYA. In that last moment my Arya spoke to me "Happy na u have ur midhu now, and dont worry Vijay i ll always be there with you, I ll be your midhu if not your Arya anymore. You remember Vijay when we eloped and I told you that my dad would cry a ot and you used to make fun of me.Don't worry, ur Midhu wont elope with any guy, because I know you will be her friend first a father later. promise ME THAT YOU WILL TAKE HER TO THE ICECREAM PARLOR THAT WE VISIT LATE NIGHT promise ME THAT YOU WILL TEACH HER HOW TO DRIVE THE WAY YOU DID TO ME promise ME........... she took a lot of promise and left me for this life I still don't know why I am alive I still don't know how I ll take care of my Midhu who is also my Arya now :)

Three years later 11th December 2010

I am at Kashmir, fulfilling one of her promises and living one of my best moments of life. Loving to know the fact that she is just not my sweet little angel Midhu, she is my Arya too. As she too hates to cover her face while asleep. Letting me get lost in her innocence and overloading my SLR with her one in a million, million pics. When Life takes a complete U turn. When life goes upside down. When u are all alone in the middle of nowhere. Its then U find that, there is someone whom you love more than anyone else you ever loved in this world.

Love never fades, it only changes its shades. . .

Second Chance

It's another morning......... Again I have to go to the office.

Ohh!! this is me... I shouted, having a glance at my ‘photo’ in today's news paper.

But what the HELL it is doing in the death column??

Strange...

One second.......Let me think, last night when I was going to bed I had a severe pain in my chest, but I don't remember anything after that, I think I had a sound sleep.

It's morning now, ohh....... It's already 10:00 AM, where is my coffee? I will be late for office and my boss will get a chance to irritate me..

Where is everyone...??? I screamed.

"I think there is a crowd outside my room, let me check." I said to myself.

So many people..... Not all of them crying......

But why some of them are crying....

WHAT IS THIS??? I’m lying there on the floor...

"I AM HERE" ....... I shouted!!! No one is listening.

"LOOK I AM NOT DEAD" .... I screamed once again!! No one is interested in me. They all were looking at me on the bed. I went back to my bed room.

"Am I dead??" I asked myself...

Where is my wife, my children, my Mom, my Dad, my friends? I found them in the next room, all of them were crying...still trying to console each other. My wife was crying... she was really looking sad. My little kid was not sure what happened, but he was crying just because his Mom was sad..

How can I go without saying to my kid that I really love him, I really do care for him. ??

How can I go without saying to my wife that she is really the most beautiful and most caring wife in this world..?? How can I go without saying to my parents that I’m what I am ... just because of you?? How can I go without telling my friends that without them perhaps I would have done most of the wrong things in my life... thanks for being there always when I need them...and sorry for not being there when they really need me..

I can see a person standing in the corner and trying to hide his tears....Oh.... he was once my best friend, but a small misunderstanding made us part, and we both have a strong enough ego to keep us disconnected.

I went there..... And offered him my hand, "Dear friend.... I just want to say sorry for everything, we are still best friends, please forgive me."

No response from other side, what the hell?? He is still preserving his ego, I am saying sorry... even then!!!

I really don't care for such people.

But one second...... It seems he is not able to see me!!!! He did not see my extended hand.

My goodness...... AM I REALLY DEAD???

I just sat down near ME; I was also feeling like crying...

"OH ALMIGHTY!!!! PLEASE JUST GIVE ME FEW MORE DAYS..."

I just wasn't to make my wife, my parents; my friends realize that how much I love them.....

My wife entered the room, she looks beautiful.

"YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL" I shouted.

She didn't hear my words, in fact she never heard these words because I never said this to her.

"GOD!!!!" I screamed... a little more timeplzzzzz I cried...

One more chance please... to hug my child, to make my mom smile just once, to feel my dad proud of me at least for a moment, to say sorry to my friends for everything I have not given to them, and thanks for still being in my life....

Then I looked up and cried!!

I shouted.......

"GOD!!!! ONE MORE CHANCE PLEASE!!!!"

"You shouted in your sleep," said my wife as she gently woke me up. "Did you have a nightmare?"

I was sleeping....

Ohh that was just a dream....

My wife was there... she can hear me... This is the happiest moment of my life...

I hugged her and whispered....

"YOU ARE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND CARING WIFE IN THIS UNIVERSE..... I REALLY LOVE YOU, DEAR"

I can't understand the reason of the smile on her face with some tears in her eyes, still I’m

happy....

"THANK YOU GOD FOR THIS SECOND CHANCE."

SO, now it's not late... Forget the egos, the Past... and express love to others.......

Be friendly...

Keep smiling...... forever....It is another chance For you...

Give your 100% in a relationship

A boy and a girl were playing together. The boy had a collection of marbles. The girl had some sweets with her. The boy told the girl, he will give her all his marbles in exchange of her sweets. The girl agreed.

The boy kept the biggest and the most beautiful marble aside and gave the rest to the girl. The girl gave him all his sweets as she had promised. That night, the girl slept peacefully but the boy couldn’t sleep. He kept on wondering if the girl has hidden some sweets from him as he had hidden his best marble.

Moral of the Story: If you don’t give hundred percent in a relationship you will keep doubting if the other person has given his/her hundred percent. Give your hundred percent to everything you do and sleep peacefully.

Lateral Thinking

Many years ago in a small Indian village, A farmer had the misfortune of owing a large sum of money to a village moneylender. The Moneylender, who was old and ugly, fancied the farmer's beautiful Daughter. So he proposed a bargain.

He said he would forgo the farmer's debt if he could marry his Daughter. Both the farmer and his daughter were horrified by the Proposal. So the cunning money-lender suggested that they let Providence decide the matter. He told them that he would put a black Pebble and a white pebble into an empty money bag. Then the girl would have to pick one pebble from the bag.

1) If she picked the black pebble, she would become his wife and her father's debt would be forgiven.

2) If she picked the white pebble she need not marry him and her father's debt would still be forgiven. 3) But if she refused to pick a pebble, her father would be thrown into Jail. They were standing on a pebble strewn path in the farmer's field. As They talked, the moneylender bent over to pick up two pebbles. As he Picked them up, the sharp-eyed girl noticed that he had picked up two Black pebbles and put them into the bag.

He then asked the girl to pick A pebble from the bag.

Now, imagine that you were standing in the field. What would you have Done if you were the girl? If you had to advise her, what would you Have told her?

Careful analysis would produce three possibilities:

1. The girl should refuse to take a pebble. 2. The girl should show that there were two black pebbles in the bag And expose the money-lender as a cheat.

3. The girl should pick a black pebble and sacrifice herself in order To save her father from his debt and imprisonment. Take a moment to ponder over the story. The above story is used with The hope that it will make us appreciate the difference between lateral And logical thinking.

The girl's dilemma cannot be solved with Traditional logical thinking.

The girl put her hand into the moneybag and drew out a pebble. Without Looking at it, she fumbled and let it fall onto the pebble-strewn path Where it immediately became lost among all the other pebbles.

"Oh, how clumsy of me," she said. "But never mind, if you look into the Bag for the one that is left, you will be able to tell which pebble I Picked."

Since the remaining pebble is black, it must be assumed that she had Picked the white one. And since the money-lender dared not admit his Dishonesty, the girl changed what seemed an impossible situation into An extremely advantageous one.

MORAL OF THE STORY:

Most complex problems do have a solution. It is only that we don't Attempt to think.